For the most part, J and I have been together on all the decisions we have made regarding getting pregnant. Even from the beginning, we both agreed we wanted to wait two years before having kids. We both agreed to try on our own for six months and then seek help if I wasn't PG by then. We both agreed after a few months of trying that we needed to see a specialist because of his bp when we have sex. We agreed that I would make appointments for him to have an SA done and meet with an RE at the same time so we could move forward. We both agreed that we could not use DS (donor sperm) for our family.
Now it is time to get the ball rolling for J to get a testicular biopsy done to see if there are sperm in there, and while I would like to have a baby of our own, I'm concerned for J at the same time. Knowing he won't be able to feel the pain of the actual procedure or any of the after affects, I wonder how his body will react to the pain. I wonder how long it will take him to recover from the procedure. I know all these are questions the doctor can answer for us, but can't a girl wonder?
I've told him that he doesn't have to go through with the procedure if he doesn't to and we can go for adoption instead, but I have a feeling he wants to exhaust all means on conceiving our own child before going that route. I think if I were in his shoes, I would want to try all things first before adoption, too.
I never knew this process would be so emotional.